Up, Down, Touch The Ground

Wow.. why is it that so often over the past handful of months there's alway some asshole making me cry while I simultaneously LAUGH at the pure ridiculousness of it. How is it that like every boyfriend I've ever had turns out to be this huge jerk that makes me feel like shit. WELL WHATEVER, I've got Max. Maybe he'll be the first exception.. there are already some huge differences in the way he treats me compared to past boyfriends.. please please please let this one be different.

ANYWAYS..
In general things are going pretty well..

Playing sax in tywo-jo makes me super excited cuz.. I've never played in a jazz band before and have never played sax in front of other musicians before lol it was kinda uncool cuz he made me play the barry part on alto so I couldn't play a lot of the notes that were too low for me.. but that's not my part permanently; Strahan was nice enough to let me take his alto parts home to look at for next week. It's kinda cool because I noticed I'm a lot more confident on clarinet after I've been playing alto, like *phew finally playing a home game again, go team*

The whole Bat Boy @ Laurier thing really didn't work out. The plan was to meet my mom at Finch and she'd drive Max and I to Markham and then we'd take the car to Waterloo... so I called around 4 pm as planned to tell her we were on our way.. and instead I get the kid who's temporarily living in our basement (his name is Greg, really nice kid) and.. to make a long story short, she had a really bad headache and locked herself in her room to sleep or something and wouldn't respond to my bro banging on her door, so I figure FINE, we'll take the bus from Finch.. so we get there.. and wait for like an hour and a half.. and the fucking bus never comes.. I considered taking a taxi all the way back to Markham.. but by that time we wouldn't have been able to make it to Waterloo in time anyway. I was REALLY REALLY disgruntled, and was all grumpy/teary at Max for the next few hours and balked at his suggestions of instead meeting his family or friends (so not in the mood for new people lol) so we ate some kinda gross stuff at some sushi place and then went back to my apartment and watched movies and ate cookies, and all was ok (YES I ATE COOKIES, I've done some major cheating this weekend but.. I needed it, I'll be straight as an arrow this week, I promise, and will run when I'm at the gym, EVERY day.) DAMN I REALLY WANTED TO SEE BAT BOY, AND SEE JODI IN IT :'(

It's been pretty good with Max, he stayed over 3 nights in a row, and I don't feel sick of him. I'm starting to trust him, and some of the doubts I had about him are starting to either resolve or stop mattering as much. I'm still a paranoid basket-case, mind you.

I haven't seen any change in myself yet really but, despite my cheating, the jeans I wore to Max Galactic on Thursday night are jeans that I haven't been able to even get up past my thighs in months! Maybe I just tried harder to get them on this time.. or maybe they were somehow loosened in the meantime.. but I prefer to see it as me having actually made progress ^_^

Oh man I'm SO behind with reading...
The week of February 12th is going to be THE WEEK FROM HELL... besides 5 performances of "Nine", there's the TYWO/TYWO-JO Le Parc concert the day after "Nine" closes AND I HAVE -3- MIDTERMS THAT WEEK!!!! And Valentine's Day.. ssshhiiiiiiiiittt.


Once again forgot what I was going to talk about but OH WELL.

P.S. After TYWO today, Helen took Jesse out for belated birthday dinner and Gideon and I tagged along.. we went to a place called King's Cafe in Kensington market.. it was REALLY REALLY REALLY good. My tastes have changed/my horzion's broadened SO much in the past year or two. At this time last year I would have wrinkled my nose at the thought of going to a sushi place, never mind a vegetarian-ASIAN place!! I get kind of excited about trying new things now. If you'd have told me at this time last year how friggin much I'd love teriyaki mushroom cutlets and soy nuggets I would have LAUGHED. Even at something like spring rolls, which I now also enjoy.
Awesomeness. Definately going back there. (Thanks Herren ^_^)

Some crazy old man smelling of drugs spoke to us and referred to us as kids "of this planet".. weeirdd.. let's get back to the mothership ASAP.