The Stars Are Brightly Shining, It Is The Night..

It's Christmas.. there's no snow but the sky is clear and the air is cold and crisp and the stars are shining brightly.

I went to a midnight service with my dad, it's becoming a tradition.. he was brought up in a Catholic family but had to ditch it to marry my mom (she's not religious at all). I scorn the conventions of organized religion and struggle with the concept of God.. and I try not to listen too hard anymore to the sermon because I find myself being critical.. why do I go at all then? Because of the feeling in the air.. there's just something magical and mysterious about Christmas Eve. You just feel good, you feel like there's something special all around you that you're taking in with every breath.. a presence.. maybe not of God, but maybe of good will. (Of course when I say "you" I mean "me" because.. who knows how many people in that church actually feel the same.) I always find myself near tears at some point and not really knowing why. And I love singing the Christmas carols lol.

I'm not religious and I DESPISE consumerism.. but.. if you give it the chance.. and let go of all the every day trivialities.. there's so much more.

Anyways, I hope you all have a very merry and holly jolly Christmas. I love you all very much and I shall take this opportunity to thank those of you who've taken time over the past few months to be there for me when I've needed a shoulder or an ear, or even just given a few words of reassurance, it means the world to me and you mean the world to me.

<3