RandyMcRandom

I feel a bit like Salieri in Amadeus, the champion of mediocrity. Everything with me has always been "ok" or "good" but I've yet to discover any true talent, anything great about me.

If you had to pick one word to describe me what would it be? (A very hard question, yes, make it two words if that helps :P )

The numbers fluctuate, but these days about 25% of me would like a significant other and the other 75% makes me feel rather surely that an emotional relationship can only ever inevitably lead to the sort of pain that I have no defense against. Stupid arguing and drama and the guy turning out to be a huge prick and being blinded to reason. I. Am. Terrified. Of. Experiencing. Any. More. Of. That. Sort. Of. Pain. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure I'll throw fear to the wind if given the right circumstance.

Last week my clarinet teacher gave me Weber's Concertino.. this week we spent the whole time at the piano with her accompanying me.. it was -so- much fun.

Yesterday on the subway there was a little boy whose skateboard was taller than he was, after several minutes of complete silence, he asked his father: "Dad, do you think Steven Harper is a good president so far?" It was so cute. His dad went on to talk about multiculturalism and terrorism, using entirely adult language, stopping now and again to ask if the kid understood what this or that word meant. He even quoted Benjamin Franklin to him. That's gonna be one smart kid when he gets bigger. I was impressed.

When I'm first getting to know people, they always end up asking what kind of music I listen to and I can never think of an answer that doesn't sound like a cop-out. I'm the only person I know that puts Phantom of the Opera, The Folksmen, Simple Plan, Leanne Rimes, The Muppets, Pink Floyd, Christina Aguilara, Queen, and so on, all on the same cd. I drastically mix a wide variety of genres in a way that would make some physically ill. Very rarely do I have more than one song by the same artist on any given cd. I won't even begin to explore the dire psychological possibilities of such an all-over-the-place approach. We'll just say I'm unique!